where I have not taken any days off

Still six month way from my next holiday, but I am already highly stressed about going to work. My manager is so fricking demanding and she watches everything I do. I felt like there is a camera constantly following me through the entire day and every work day.

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I don’t think I can handle another year like this. Even though this year I had pay raise for the patience I got for that constant surveillance… which I resent… I’ll still be stressed out eventually. If you were paying attention to my shout out here on this blog, you would have realized that my stress level has been extremely high and blown to the top by now. This is my second holiday season where I have not taken any days off (except for the day I had surgery). And it’s getting worse. I’m already dreading for the remaining six more months before the chance to get some rest and maybe fly to Acapulco and throw everything behind. There is no end in sight to this nightmare yet.

THOUGHT ABOUT QUITTING

So I’m thinking about resigning. Just quitting and finding something else to do with my life. This is making me feel suicidal. Not just the constant stress but also the fact that I have been so close to making so much money in such a short period of time. But then, I think about all those people who will be out of work due to pandemic. Yet, the economy is showing positive in all major media, inflation had gone outrageously high and yet I am still the same old slave to the flag. I feel so sorry for all those people who are going to be out of work for an extended period of time over Covid. Especially if they happen to be young and just starting out in their careers or having family to feed.

Facing Reality
There is really nothing I can do to change this environment. As I have noted before, I am a very optimistic person and always look at the bright side of things. But there is no bright side anymore. So I have no choice but to accept this reality and start dealing with it in a proactive way. And that means one thing. It’s time to buckle down and get back to work with a positive vibe. Then, I started to google to find any remedies that will help me to resolve this lowdown of mine. I went over most of the pills that can improve my stress and depression, but I remember years ago my brother got into his addiction with prozac and almost kill himself over that. I decided to looking for alternative ways to help. Surprisingly I found herbs and essential oil.

What My Family Doctor Said
There are overloaded with information about herbs and oils that can help, but I find it hard to pin down on something for myself. I had no choice to call my mom’s friend Dr. Esswane who is also our family doctor for years. I told her about how puzzled I am with the amount of information is out there and not being able to pick the right one. Dr. Esswane immediately told me that his wife and himself are using Cananga Oil. This oil is basically anti-inflammatory and has a lot of properties that can fight stress and depression. He then told me that he doesn’t know if it will work for me or not. But he said it worth a try.